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Sunday, August 12th, 2007
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The Everything Test There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all. Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-) | Personality | You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more loner than dependent, more lazy than workaholic, more rebel than traditional, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.
As for specific personality traits, you are outgoing (100%), intellectual (81%), innovative (64%), horny (64%). | | | Stereotypes | | Punk Rock | 73% | | Prep | 54% | | White Trash | 50% | | | | Life Experience | | Sex | 29% | | Substances | 19% | | Travel | 9% | | Politics
Your political views would best be described as Socialist, whom you agree with around 67% of the time. | | Socioeconomic
Your attitude toward life best associates you with Middle Class. You make more than 50% of those who have taken this test, and 65% less than the U.S. average.
| If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13.
By the way, your hottness rank is 81%, hotter than 97% of other test takers. | TAKE THE TEST brought to you by thatsurveysite
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Thursday, July 19th, 2007
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Summer draws to a close, and I couldn't be happier. Ok, yes, I could be happier, but only if it were Sunday :) Sunday is when I get to see Katie again. Since I've been done working, time has slowed dramatically. Its like its preventing Sunday from coming.
So much has happened since the last time I updated. So, LIST TIME!
Katie and I are now together as of July 2nd. <3 <3
I have a new computer. Its name is the monstrosity. If you question the name you are require to see it.
I'm down to a very select few people that I am looking forward to seeing when i return to school due to events I am trying to forget about, and want to keep private. Unless however you wish to talk about them then I MAY open up, but don't push it.
Due to Residence Life's major overhaul, I have no clue who I will be working with this year or where exactly I will be living. I Pray That I Am Still On The First Floor. It will be too weird if I have to sleep in the same room that Josh slept in for 3 years. Its Josh's room not mine.
I have my first (and probably only) level 70 character on World of Warcraft. I'm a dork I know.
I may or may not be going to Warp Tour in the morning. Depends on if my brother can fill up his car or not.
I am going to a wedding Saturday with Holly. Staying there Friday and Saturday then heading out on Sunday morning to see Katie!!!!!
Did I mention that Katie and I are together. :)
I haven't felt this wonderful in a long time. As long as I'm talking with her everything else just melts away. We talk and I get all these butterflies in my stomach. Ahhhh.
~I am me
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So at the risk of sounding emo... My life sucks right now. Cracker Barrel is the bane of my existence. All of my "Friends" seem to have forgotten about me. No one calls me when they're supposed to and well its driven me of all people to drink.
Fuck it all, and fuck you everclear.
~I am me
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The Truth Shall Set You Free
~I am me
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So can someone explain to me why I cannot understand quantum mechanics a single ounce all semester but when I'm hyped up on redbull and adderall I can crank out chapters worth of homework in one night... which may not seem to be that bad until you realize that I start with the last chapter and worked my way backwards.
P.S.>} the hydrogen atom can go fuck it self... that is all...
~I am me
P.S.S.>} depression + adderall crashing + 8 chapters of homework & a paper due by 5pm = zombie (of the slow moving variety, non of those 28 days later running zombies... though I wish)
P.S.S.S.>} by the way the title is a tribute to Cowboy Bebop
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Irony: Going to a Masquerade sponsored by a cristian college dressed as the Greek God and Goddess of the underworld.
More later.
~I am me
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Thursday, April 12th, 2007
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So I had to address some of my deeper issues in counseling today. Its the first time I've cried for myself in a very long time. They always say it gets worse before it gets better, well its gotten worse. The fact that theirs only one person that I can talk to about it doesn't help either. I just want this semester to be over with already.
On a lighter note I can't wait to see Bryan College again next weekend!
~I am me
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This friday starting at 8 am the scifi channel will be showing a marathon of FIREFLY!
So everyone better watch!
Wow I'm actually excited... scary isn't it.
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For those of you that don't know, I live in a dream world concocted from my own fantasies and fuel by the entertainment I enjoy. This being anime, tv shows and video games. I am litterally in my own little world that I never want to escape from. I wish I was Van from Escaflowne. A warrior prince, that controls a massive Guymelf (robot) and has giant angel wings in his back. Or Malcolm Reynolds privateering across the solar system in a firefly class transport ship, moving from planent to planet doing odd jobs and being shot at. Or Cid from Final Fantasy VII trying to reach for the stars in a rocket ship. I want to live in some world other than this one. I feel as though the real world is just a nightmare between when I sleep or when I emerse myself in my world, or spend time with my girlfriend.
I want a world with robots and space travel and lasers. I want to have wings and be able to fly about all over the place and pilot giant machines in battle. Or that I was in a world as a great swordsman or fighting witches or was a vampire.
What I really would like to do is be able to generate waves of forces. Kinda like telekinetics. Like a sphere of force radiating out from me. Which I have actually tried to produce.
I wish for things that will not happen in my lifetime or will ever happen the way that the human race is going.
So now everyone knows what goes on in my head. Sometimes I feel if I try hard enough I can produce some of these things but it would never work. I'm just a loon who can't control his imagination, which manifests into my reality. Creating a middle ground between the real world and my dream world. I am crazy.
I could never tell my parents this stuff else I may end up in therapy and they already think I'm a fuck up. "Hey your son's a fuck up and he's crazy! Congratulations!"
So back to reality.
I miss Katie. I miss everyone in Carrollton. I miss my home. I'm tired of working, but it reminds me why I'm in college, which is to get out of the Hellish work that I do now.
I have to be up in 4 and half hours. I'm going to sleep.
~peace
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Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
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Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster...
and if you gaze into the Abyss, the Abyss gazes also into you.
Nietzche
I long for days gone by, days with less worries, less troubles... as long as I can remember I have never been innocent, always tainted or perverse or twisted. No time of Innocence to long for, on days of less stress and less assholes. I have energy or will to do much of anything anymore. I hate my residents, they've drained me of every once of energy and patience I had left. I just want to sit and play video games for the next 12 years. I just feel like theres just this massive weight on top of me and I can't get it off. I feel like I'm being dragged around with no say in where I go. I used to be able to write and make myself better but I can't even begin to write anything. I have gazed into the Abyss and its gaze has seized me and crippled me.
I want to take 2 am drives down savannah back roads with dew covering everything. I love the smell of dew, and the crisp air blowing on my face as I drive. I want plates of lumpia and fireworks wars. I want sand and surf. I want mountains and scenic views. I want people to want to be with me, not just when they need something or when I just pop out of no where.
I want to cry.
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Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
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"Through others I find pain and sorrow, I shall be with some that cause these emotions, though not of my own design but for protection of one's feelings that mean more to me than anything else." ~ Me
Well I had several long talks with Katie today. Went to the UCC and watched people walk by as we talked. I love watching people.
Skipped 2 classes, though 1 was canceled so not really skipping.
People are still being mean to me. I want them to leave me alone or just talk to me but they won't. I hate being a guy. Nobody expects you to have feelings or to be sensitive which is bullshit. I hate being hurt and tired of it.
I want spring break to get here so I can get away from this school and the residents. Especially since last week one of them threatened to beat my ass. Fun times.
Sat in the lobby and worked on homework and Kelly came over. Still being mean to me. I'm starting to think its nothing I can prevent. Maybe there are actually people out there that just want to be mean to me, or maybe I just deserve it. I don't know which. Both seem viable right now.
Got upset so I went for a run around campus. Ran 2 miles straight without stopping. I was so proud of myself.
Was talking on-line then Sherry called me out of the blue. Was great to talk with her again. One of the only people that don't treat me like shit right now. Talked about AWA XII. We are going as Aman and Robin from Witch Hunter Robin.
Which I need to buy my ticket for soon before they go up again. :-/
oh well
~peace
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Walked from IHOP back to school. about 4 miles. at midnight.
I'm retarded.
nuff said.
I don't know anymore.
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Thursday, March 2nd, 2006
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| Time: | 3:12 am. |
| Music: | Lacuna Coil ~ Comalies. |
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Your results:
You are Malcolm Reynolds (Captain)
| Malcolm Reynolds (Captain) |
| 90% |
| Kaylee Frye (Ship Mechanic) |
| 85% |
| Zoe Washburne (Second-in-command) |
| 75% |
| Derrial Book (Shepherd) |
| 60% |
| Jayne Cobb (Mercenary) |
| 55% |
| Dr. Simon Tam (Ship Medic) |
| 50% |
| Wash (Ship Pilot) |
| 45% |
| River (Stowaway) |
| 45% |
| Alliance |
| 35% |
| Inara Serra (Companion) |
| 25% |
| A Reaver (Cannibal) |
| 25% |
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Honest and a defender of the innocent.
You sometimes make mistakes in judgment
but you are generally good and
would protect your crew from harm.
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Click here to take the Serenity Firefly Personality Test
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Tuesday, February 21st, 2006
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 | You scored as Serenity (Firefly). You like to live your own way and donâ??t enjoy when anyone but a friend tries to tell you should do different. Now if only the Reavers would quit trying to skin you.
Serenity (Firefly) | | 100% | Galactica (Battlestar: Galactica) | | 100% | Deep Space Nine (Star Trek) | | 88% | Babylon 5 (Babylon 5) | | 81% | Moya (Farscape) | | 75% | Bebop (Cowboy Bebop) | | 75% | Andromeda Ascendant (Andromeda) | | 63% | Millennium Falcon (Star Wars) | | 63% | Nebuchadnezzar (The Matrix) | | 63% | FBI's X-Files Division (The X-Files) | | 63% | SG-1 (Stargate) | | 31% | Enterprise D (Star Trek) | | 13% | </td>
Your Ultimate Sci-Fi Profile II: which sci-fi crew would you best fit in? (pics)
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Dolefully desired
Destiny is a lie.
Set me free your Heaven's a lie
Set me free with your love
Set me free.
~Lacuna Coil -- Heaven's a Lie
Long time, but oh well.
Picked up two new CD's this week. Comalies by Lacuna Coil and Dark Light by H.I.M. Both of which are absolutely wonderful. Lacuna Coil is a lot like Evanescence but oh so much better. They have a female singer who has a wonderful voice and is oh so haunting. The songs all sound different, which is a major plus. H.I.M. is just plan good.
Been buying way too many DVD's lately. Picked up Groundhog Day, Chain Reaction, Enemy at the Gates, the first season of The 4400, Akira, and +++ prolly like 3 or 4 more.
Its kinda sad that Groundhog Day is one of my favorite movies and I hadn't owned it. I do now! Muhahahahahaha!
I love my Katie.
~peace
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Monday, February 6th, 2006
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So time for a real update.
I've had an interesting past couple of weeks.
Last saturday was my birthday. YAY! Finally 21. I'm the only person that I know that has drank more often after 21 than before.
On my birthday the other RA's and I went to GCSU for GRASS (Georgia Resident Assistant Saturday Seminar). I really enjoyed it. Well except for the ride there and back. The driver decided that the car needed to be 90+ degrees. Holy shit it pissed me off to no end. I hate sweating when I'm not working out, and I do that at 80 degrees. So I was miserable in the car but when we were at the Seminar I had a great time. If UWG did the cafeteria as well as GCSU then I'd still have a meal plan.
Another guy got arrested for alcohol in the girls building causing all sorts of more drama between the floors.
Thanks to everyone that dropped me a line on my b-day. It was really appreciated. And to those that didn't and should have known better, well you can just go away. Its amazing how some of your "Best Friends" could forget your 21st. Whatever fuck em.
Went to Logans Tuesday with Katie and got my first legal drink. Roadhouse Tea. mmmm Yummy.
Went home this weekend. Didn't get home until around 11. Worked from 730am till 3. Made 80... not bad. Went to Logan's with the family after work. Made me get a drink. Was really weird drinking with my family there. The Best Buy and then home for sleep.
Came back today. Superbowl Party went well. Played Halo before and at half time. Go Steelers!
Well shit I'm off to bed. Way too early.
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Friday, February 3rd, 2006
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| Time: | 3:44 am. |
| Mood: |  lazy. | | Music: | Avenged Sevenfold ~ Trashed and Scattered. |
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After you die...
Heaven
After death, you will exist in heaven. Everything and everyone you love will constantly surround you for all of eternity. You lucky scoundrel.
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Sunday, January 15th, 2006
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| Your Birthdate: January 28 | 
You have a Type A personality so big it makes other Type A's shrink away in shame.
You never shy away from adversity - and you love to tackle impossible problems.
Failure is not an option for you, and more than a few people are put off by your ego.
You tend to be controlling, and you hate leaving anything up to chance.
Your strength: Your bold approach to life
Your weakness: You don't accept help
Your power color: Bronze
Your power symbol: Pyramid
Your power month: October |
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| Time: | 3:16 pm. |
| Mood: |  rejected. | | Music: | 36 Crazyfists - Slit Wrist Theory'. |
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I'm really mixed up emotionally right now. On one hand I'm really happy and on the other extremely depressed and rejected.
First with the happy:
Katie and I got back together yesterday morning. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
Ashley and I watched this Sci-fi channel show called Firefly. Really good show. Reminds me of the anime Cowboy Bebop. ++++++++
I bought myself a Nintendo DS so that I don't always have to use Katie's. +++++
Ashley let me borrow 2 Zelda games and a Castlevania for the Gameboy. Zelda = the shit. ++++++
My modern physics class is going to be awesome. I love the professor and I love the way she teaches and I love the material. So a really good recipe for a class. +++++++++
Started playing WoW again with the help of Ashley.++++++
Now the unhappy/weird:
Max is in 3 of my classes and is my lab partner in one of them, more weird than anything. ------
Its seems that people just seem to ignore me when I'm not the person they think I am. ----------------------------------
Nobody seems to even want to talk to me about the shit thats been going on. Like if they ignore me I will just get better or something. Well I just get worse. Just to let you know. ------------------------------------------
Revelations (or Reaffirmations):
I hate people and I hate human nature. I hate all but a dwindling few. Yes I said dwindling.
I'm starting to realize how little amount of friends I have.
I'm finally learning who I can turn to and who I should even bring up my real self.
My patience has withered down to nothing. I just don't care enough anymore. Or at least thats what I'd like to say. I will never stop caring.
Confessions:
The real me is very fragile.
I get discouraged at the drop of a hat.
I don't like crowds, they make me feel claustrophobic.
My feelings and hopes get dashed several times a day by all these people that think that I'm "being all pouty".
I am dependent on other people to justify myself.
I get upset when people never start a conversation they just wait for me to start on.
I can't stand being ignored.
Whatever.
I have my Katie back and that's all that really matters right now. :-)
~peace
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Friday, January 13th, 2006
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| Subject: | Well... |
| Time: | 4:07 am. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. | | Music: | Avenged Sevenfold ~ The Wicked End. |
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So I am currently playing Lunar: Dragon Song for Nintendo DS. Its pretty good. Battles could be a little harder and I wish I had more controll over them. But its ok cause it reminds me of my Ogre Battle days. Also been playing Civilization 4 and F.E.A.R. Civ 4 is really fun though there are some aspects that are killing it for me. F.E.A.R. is just damn... beautiful fun and lots of blood. Only problem is its a major system hog. and I mean major.
I have all these things running through my head that I just want to let loose, but every time I try to write them I just feel like I'm being emo and need to just shut up and grow up. But whatever.
I hate that how people don't want to do anything with me unless I do it under their terms. Like being told to bring my tv and games out into the lobby to play, or going to their room cause mine doesn't have a couch. I like laying on the floor while I play video games and watch movies. I grew up doing that. I grew up laying on the floor. I hate couches. I like my room. I'm comfortable there. I hate feeling uncomfortable. I may depend on my room as a haven from everything and everyone else way too often but oh well I'd rather be comfortable and alone then uncomfortable somewhere else with people. And then when I say something they just say I'm whining.
I know that I'm anti-social. I used to be good at just forgetting about it and just doing what I wanted to do. But I'm having a harder and harder time doing that. I can't keep just forgetting how much people make me uncomfortable. People just don't seem to care or just don't even notice. I guess I've just disguised it for so long that people think that I'm acting weird when I don't do things. I don't like clubs, especially with some people that I would go with. Their are somepeople around me that I have lost most if not all respect for.
I wish that I could just tell some people to shut the fuck up. Especially those who have no fucking clue about what their talking about. Like people that have never worked with food and complain about the way its prepared. Bah!
I atleast have good friends that I can talk to. Well most of the time. It seems like lately the people that I used to talk a lot have stopped talking. I have tried to talk to some of them and they either stop talking soon after the conversation starts or do not respond. It just seems like nobody wants to talk to me anymore.
I still have Katie though. She keeps me holding on and keeps me sane. I wish that I didn't feel so bad because of what other people have done. I depend too much on other people to get me through things and keep me in good spirits. I should be able to do that by myself. Just more stuff I need to work on.
So after 2 fire alarms in the wee hours of the morning I can finally finish and sleep.
~peace
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gloomy.
thankful.
drained.
lethargic.